A Change? No thank you.

There are many definitions of change; many perceptions even. And there are only a certain things that really matter to me when there is a change, lets just say certain people. And I in turn will never change for them, coz thats how its always and thats how I always want it to be. 

But then we grow up, have more responsibilities and then where do my old priorities go? Nowhere. Certain things and certain people  I care about more than myself, and to me thats not wrong. You would disagree with me saying that the most important person for you should be yourself no other. I feel thats being too selfish, even on the long run. But it is that way because those certain have changed me, made me stronger and taught me how to say no! Making me normal..

For me, others may come n go but most stay. And if I don't like anyone I never make it obvious unless its really necessary. There are those who have been with me through everything and so many years but still be careful with talking to me. Those I don't like and with them its best to stay at a good distance over a while. But a certain few stay, stay closer than anyone ever. Even if say she swears at me with all anger and might, I think it be justified since she knows me well, more than myself probably. And I might've gone wrong but I wouldn't even know it. But I would wait; a week, a month, a year even, to know where I went wrong. Is this extreme? No, not for me. Its how I have learnt and become stronger. Those who know me well, know the change.

Did I just define change or confuse myself further?